Haven't been posting much lately. Call it lazy, unmotivated, discouraged, etc. Just feeling I'm sort of in a plateau in my training right now. I'm seeing great improvements in some things (ie: new front squat PR, snatch PR, Annie PR) but I don't feel like my improvements are as much as I want or need them to be.

I do CrossFit for me. I do it to be better at life. It teaches me to work through difficult tasks whether they are mental, physical, or emotional challenges. BUT... I also want to be the best. I want to be great at what I do. I never heard anyone say it better than my newest CF friend Michelle Benedict at our CF Gymnastics cert. When asked why she was there she simply said "I want to win. I want to be the best and I don't want anything less than that."

That's what I want. I don't just want to be 'good', I want to be amazing at what I do.

I feel like my weaknesses are really starting to improve drastically. I'm able to do more WB shots than I ever was able to do before. I'm able to front squat and deadlift more. But for some reason all I see is others improving more than I am. I show up consistantly and work my butt off, yet less consistant gym go-ers are improving at a better rate.

I want my goal of qualifying to the CrossFit Games more than ever now. Just like OPT said "I will die on this mat if I have to". I just fear what I'm doing may not be enough...

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